I drove over to Cortez tonight for square dancing. I thought I was getting there way early, and instead I got there a little late. Nobody told me they were giving plus lessons at 6:30. I was totally bummed because I love the plus lessons . . . but, I did get some in. Some of those advanced steps are really hard, and even after doing them dozens of times, I still don't really have them down. I even watched videos today so I could do them better! No such luck!
Something interested happened tonight, though. There is one female caller who isn't very good. She's been doing it for years, and for some reason, she's just never improved. Normally, if I know she is going to call, I don't even go those nights. But, sometimes, if she comes to dance, then the regular caller will let her call one "tip." So, she called one dance tonight, and I wasn't lucky enough to get out of it. I danced, and it wasn't so horribly bad after all. BUT, suddenly, I realized how judgmental I was being! Success! I knew I was judgmental, but I don't think I've ever "caught myself in the act before!" So, this was very cool for me and totally a step in the right direction! From now on, I will not judge her . . . but, I'll still try to get out of any dances that she calls!
Monday
Back to ballroom dance lessons tonight, and guess what!? We learned the dance that I danced at the country western place! Just one lesson too late! Oh, well. I had a great time tonight, and continue to really enjoy these lessons.
John was there . . . he is always there. And he offered to look at my broken scanner "as a favor." He also asked if I was married or in a relationship. I told him I had just finished a relationship and needed some space. He said he just moved here a few months ago and just wanted a friend. When I said I didn't drink, he said he didn't drink much either, and that he could even come to Mancos. He said something like . . . I don't mean to be pushy . . . But, he was . . . very pushy.
And idiot that I can sometimes be, I was going to let him look at the scanner. On my way driving home, it came to me . . . what are you thinking!?! You don't need to be beholden to this guy! Forget the whole scanner deal! So, tomorrow, I'm going to give back his company catalog that he gave me (he said he can get me a new scanner at 10% over cost), and tell him I'm not ready to do anything with broken scanner or new scanner. Then, if he persists . . . I will be as polite as I can in telling him that I am not interested, at all, friendship or anything else.
Tuesday
Dancing was great. Since there were no new people, we got a little more advanced tonight. I love this stuff! But the interaction with John was strained. He doesn't get that I'm not interested, but perhaps, now, he will. Oh, well. I'm learning all the time. I just hope he doesn't start stalking me or something!
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