Letters from Phil

I knew it was coming. I knew he wouldn't leave it alone. He likes to keep everyone as friends . . . a position that I never thought I'd be in. So, his email today said that when he did his end-of-the-year gratitude list that I was on it.

It was only one more week till I was going to send that email that I wrote . . . so, I decided that since he wrote now, I'd just send mine now . . . that was the email asking what was the "considering" that made him break it off. So, first he sends me this email with a lot of little things that didn't amount to much . . . some perhaps relevant, some B.S. Mostly it was stuff that had been bothering him that he wasn't communicative enough to talk about . . . not my fault. He was a good communicator, too, so that was a surprise. But, nothing in it worthy of causing a break up.

Then, he sent another email that basically said he was going through a lot of stress around Christmas . . . thinking about driving back to see his family and all . . . nothing to do with me . . . and he was totally stressed out and he was going through "angst" (his word) . . . You better sit down, here, friends, or you'll fall over laughing . . . the bottom line being that he broke up with me because he was having a bad hair day . . . well, perhaps more than that, but that's what it amounted to. So, he turned my life upside down because he was having a bad hair day. There is just something entirely poetic about that! It gives me clarity and relief and . . . you know, laughter. And . . . I'm feeling . . . free.

I'm not sure I'm ready to sign back up with eHarmony . . . but, a lot closer than I was before this ridiculous exchange. I so rest in the knowing that this was all meant to be . . . meeting him, falling for him, and having it end like this. It was so meant to be "for the development of my being." I'm okay with that. In fact, I'm great with that. And it makes me laugh . . . I mean . . . a bad hair day! . . . does the universe have a great sense of humor, or what!?!?