Every morning I walk Moki along our street. It can be busy, especially first thing in the morning, and around quitting time. Whenever a car comes by, we stop, and I make Moki lie down. That was initially because he tried to chase every car that went by. I think he still would, too, if I didn't make him lie down. I also wave to everyone who goes by. You know, I'm that weird waving person!! Most people do wave back and smile.
This morning, a car started coming, so I made Moki lay down . . . and the car stopped. It was my friend, Dee . . . one of the women who used to go down to Farmington with me and give my friend, Kay, reiki. I haven't seen her in a couple months. She stopped going to Farmington because her husband was diagnosed with cancer and he was dying. So, I haven't seen her in over a couple months. I don't even know how she recognized me with my heavy winter coat on, and a winter hat covering most of my face.
So, we talked awhile and she told me about her husband and what she's going through, and I told her about the awesome time at Shiprock (because I had talked to her about Shiprock before), and then I told her the sad story about Phil. She said, "It's okay. Did you learn a lesson from it?"
Yes, yes, I did. I learned about how easily I'm willing to overlook red flags. And that bothers me. Will I do that again? Even as recent as a week ago when I received that first email from him . . . I actually thought about . . . well, if he changes his mind and explains the red flags away . . . maybe I can ignore the rest . . . That's awful! I can't believe I was *still* willing to do that! I'm hoping that being aware that I was willing to do that . . . I hope that serves as lesson enough. I DO NOT want to go through this kind of thing again. But, just Dee mentioning the whole lesson thing made me feel so much better.
But, it was a good exchange with her, and she said maybe we could have lunch some time. She also said that the other woman, Louanna, had been trying to get hold of me, and that I need to call her. The three of us did the reiki together, so maybe she wants me for that. Or maybe she wants to invite me back to the "intenders" circle that I went to once. I doubt if I'll go back to that, though.
And here's a quote that I found that made me feel tremendously better. I keep reading it over and over again!
Whenever something doesn't work out the way you thought it would, instead of thinking that something went wrong, see it as something that went unexpectedly well, but for reasons that are not yet apparent.
Everything plays to your favor.
Score!
I know what happened is a wonderful thing, and I can hardly wait to find out the reasons. But, I have a feeling the reasons are going to be awesome! Someone incredibly special is coming into my life . . . I can feel it!
There was going to be a free African dance and drumming ensemble at the college in Durango. It was first come, first served. It sounded absolutely awesome, and I wanted to be sure to get in. So, when it said "doors open at 6:30," I thought I'd get there at 6:00 just to be sure to get in. I wasn't even sure that would be early enough. But, I got there just before 6:00 and didn't see anyone there, but walked over to be sure. No one was there, and the lights were off. I was going to walk back to my car and sit awhile, but got distracted by something brown running by. A deer! Then another! Then another! They wandered over to some grass which had become green in the warmer temperatures of the last few days. I started walking slowly to get closer to them. And out of the corner of my eye, I saw another one wanting to cross past where I was. I walked across the street thinking that would be far enough away, but it didn't like me watching it. So, I did what I learned at the horse ranch for when you work with wild horses. I turned my back on it. Predators keep eye contact . . . so my watching it was threatening. Once I turned my back, the deer walked on by, followed by another and another. All together there were about seven mule deer. They were awesome!
Filled with joy over the wonderful experience, I watched them for several minutes before I heard my friend, Rosemary, call my name. We walked back to the theater and still there was no one there! Then, another woman came and was also surprised no one was there. Rosemary hadn't worn a warm jacket and it was pretty chilly out, so we decided to walk for awhile. We walked to the other side of the campus and were on our way back when the woman who was still at the theater walked by us and said it was at a different place. So, we had to walk clear back the other direction, and sure enough, there were people everywhere. There was still plenty of room inside, though, thankfully.
We got good seats and waited. Finally, it began. They had two large instruments in the middle of the stage . . . they were xylophones, made out of wood and gourds. The gourds had little white patches on them, and they explained that it had something to do with giant spiders and their babies and the sound that comes out of the gourds through the spider webs! Is that cool, or what! They had two people playing the xylophones and then a drummer in the middle. The music touched me so much, I just wanted to close my eyes and absorb it . . . but, then again, I didn't want to miss the visuals, which were also very cool. The decision was made for me: the dancers danced out onto the stage.
There were three women and one man, and they were all awesome! You could feel the joy of performance emanating from them . . . it was tangible. It wasn't possible to watch their dance without feeling the same joy. This particular dance was supposed to be for joy and healing . . . and I believe it.
The costumes were interesting. The men wore shorts for the first dance (the first dance was actually two men and two women) . . . that is shorts with some things hanging from the waist. On one guy, it sounded like bells. The women wore dresses that could have been square dancing dresses. The next dance, the women wore plain dresses . . . appropriate for school or office. The one guy wore these pants that had a low crotch . . . down to his knees . . . and wide material, so that he was capable of doing the splits without affecting the pants. And he did do the splits while jumping into the air!
Next, the guy came out dressed in a grass skirt. He did all kinds of movements, including a weird move . . . he was in the push-up position, on his hands and toes, and he jumped all around the stage. It was totally amazing. Then, the three women all came out dressed in grass skirts. They all took turns dancing alone, then all danced together. And all the time they were dancing, for this dance and all the dances before, in back of them, drums were beating and instruments playing. They did some cool vocalizations, too, that I couldn't even begin to describe. All in all, it was a spectacular event, and I can't believe it was free. All I can say is that if I would have paid fifty dollars to see these people, it would have been worth every cent. I was intrigued and entertained the whole time, and a huge smile never left my face. It was awesome!
As I drove to Durango tonight, I noticed that the moon was almost full. I looked it up a couple days ago, and I must have looked at the calendar wrong because I thought the full moon wasn't until next week. And since I like to start things when the moon is waxing, and the moon was almost full . . . it had to be tonight. What, you ask? Putting a personal ad on Craigslist . . . that's an online classified site. I "met" a guy on there last year, but I've never put up my own ad, and since I've been getting the feeling that I have to let "him come to me," I thought putting up my own personal ad would fit that. So, tonight, I *tried." I did everything right . . . got the secret code and entered it, saw what my ad would look like, and got the email verifying that it went up. So, I went to sleep.
The following morning, I looked to see if I had any responses . . . I didn't really expect any that quick . . . but, I checked. Nothing. Then, I clicked on the ad to see what it looked like on the actual site. NOTHING! It didn't go up! Everything looks right about it, and it says it's there, but it's not there! So . . . I decided that if the universe doesn't want the ad up there, I'm certainly not going to fight it. It must not be time yet . . . or at all. So, two weeks from now when the moon starts to wax again . . . and if I feel like it . . . then, perhaps I will try again. I thought this was pretty interesting, though. The angels are definitely looking out for me!!
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